Dealing with Past & Future

Writing book two has been a challenge! I’m happy to say I have officially decided on a title, & a gorgeous cover is in the works! ‘Second Star to the Right,’ is set to be released hopefully early February! (mayyyybe sooner! We shall see!!)

There is so much more going on with Second Star to the Right! It’s a bit longer than Make Me Exist, and has so many new characters!

The real struggle has been having past & future versions of characters together in the same timeline. We have characters that are just starting their arcs, & their future versions who have finished their arcs. It’s an interesting mix of how much do your experiences make you who you are, and how much of your reactions are just you.

I really play off memories in book two, contrasting the idea that memories do or don’t make up who we become.

There is also the aspect of Cyran & Adriem’s shared thoughts-which has been intriguing to play with. If you could hear, see, & feel everything another person had going on in their heads—how would that affect a relationship? How would the two people interact with one another?

Cyran is faced with a lot in book two, & I do want to warn everyone-it get’s heavy. Be prepared to laugh out loud, fall in love, fall out of love, scream, cry, and travel (across the globe and maybe even into space a bit!)

Thank you for all my readers support with Make Me Exist, I am so excited to continue this adventure with you all in this four part series ❤

Book Two Chapter Excerpt: Creep

“Kill me.”  His eyes didn’t even look green as the shadows blotted out any light he had.  He knew I was here.  Rogue knew I wasn’t going to help him.  “Do not leave me here alive, Cyran.”  Adriem’s racing heartbeat was growing louder in thought and I knew I was beginning to fade in this time.

“I love you, Rogue.”  It was hard to keep my gaze on him as his struggles began again.  “I’m going to see you soon.  You are going to be okay.”  I wasn’t sure how many more days it would be before Adriem, Dev, and my father made it onto Achilla’s ship to rescue Rogue, but I knew how agonizing every waiting minute would be for Rogue.  I took a step backwards and away from him, it was time to go.  There wasn’t anything I could do.  I wasn’t really here…

“I don’t want to be okay,” Rogue mumbled and a shiver ran across his features as his eyes fluttered close.  “I’m not scared to die,” his pain was so exposed in his low voice.  “I’m afraid of this.  I’m afraid of living.  Don’t leave me here alive.”  The shadowed eyes drifted back to me and the pull that was dragging me away from Rogue was getting harder to fight.  

“I have to go…I-”

“I want you to just choose me…”  Rogue’s stare on me was fading as he surrendered to all of his hurt.  “Choose me this one time…help me.”  He looked as though he were peering directly through me, the greens murky and lost.  If I could help you right now…I would choose you, Rogue.  I would help you.  “Kill me.”  It didn’t seem as though he could see me any longer…I glanced down at my hands and saw what Rogue saw, just a whisper of me.  A fading spector that wasn’t real.  

“Do you want me to kill him?”  Gawen’s voice seemed far away, much softer than Adriem’s heartbeat that was so profound in my thoughts.  He stood behind Rogue and out of sight, the lights from the blinking holographic monitors intensifying his fiery red hair.

“No,” I forced my voice into this past as time began to drag me forward.

“Let him.”  Rogue allowed his eyes to fully close and his body began to ease into the safety of sleep.  “It’s okay to change things,” he mumbled, his head lolling on his chest as small tributaries of blood channeled down his body.

“Rogue will live,” I gritted my teeth and glared at Gawen.  “And I will honor our agreement when we meet again.”  I was so soft, my words so translucent.  Did he hear me?

“Only time will tell, little goddess.”  Gawen laughed slightly and turned away from Rogue.  There was no more time here. 

I am getting closer & closer to finishing book two and there are so many emotional moments sometimes I find it hard not to get lost during my normal day.

Book Two Chapter Titles

I always get so much inspiration while listening to music when I create scenes ❤️ playing each moment, gesture, thought & word out. Some of these songs have been listened to hundreds of times just to create a few pages. It’s only natural that the songs themselves would become chapter titles. Here is the line-up of chapters for book two (so far!). Excited to be a bit more then halfway done, with a first draft finish date of December 1st!

Book Two Lost in Time Series Excerpt

“Cyran and Charlotte are alive,” Roe insisted, his back turned to us as he gazed out over the moonlite laden field.

“There’s only one way to find out,” Dev piped up cheerfully, and the room felt as if it were perfectly still as my brother sent out waves of determination.  

“I think it’s time to make me exist again,” I smiled at Dev across from me, the chameleon green of his eyes shining as I let the intense feeling of purpose take over.  God he was so good at feeling out the room.  “It’s time to rescue some lost girls from Neverland.”          

Make Me Exist Audio Book Excerpt

Claire Glover has been doing an absolutely wonderful job at voicing our main character Cyran for the Make Me Exist audio book!! The Audio book will be available in November of this year-the ebook & paperback are available on Amazon, as well as KindleUnlimited!

Book Two Update

Book Two Third Chapter Excerpt:

I didn’t know why I was so unreasonably mad at Adriem.  Adriem was only trying to help his son…or keep me from literally killing him…not interfere in our arguments or acting against me.  Still, the red hadn’t been diluted with any other colors, and I needed to be angry with someone.  Everything was violet and gold and silver and there was so much red.

With the release of book one in the Lost in Time series, & numerous emails and requests wondering how long we have to wait for book two–I thought I would write an update! I would like to start off by saying, it won’t be a long wait.

I had started book two immediately after finishing book one’s first draft, and have been working on the two side by side. The second novel is a little longer and in my opinion, so, so, so much better.

We have so many new characters, new settings, new developments and aspects to the second book that have been so much fun to work with.

I have yet to decide on a title name for book two, so stay tuned for that! But the cover is already being hand drawn, & I am so excited for that!

I am hoping for a release date of February, or first week of March at the latest. I will also be looking for Beta readers at the end of this year, so if that interests you–I will be choosing 10-15 beta readers pre-launch-feel free to contact me via email

In short, we have about three months—possibly four months, if there is a snag in the editing—before the polished second book is available on amazon!

Thank you so much for your support and absolute love of Cyran, and all of our Lost in Time characters.

Interview with Mike from ‘The Tellest’

So excited for the well thought out questions Mike asked during our interview for his blog with ‘The Tellest!’ We have lowered our Kindle pricing for the week in response to the Author Interview to $2.99, and of course, ‘Make Me Exist,’ is also available on KindleUnlimited.

Interview Snippets: Click the above link for the full interview!

T: What was your biggest challenge when it came to writing or publishing Make Me Exist?  Was it difficult shifting your thinking from poetry to prose?

BZ: Gosh the whole process has been challenging, right down to sitting down and writing an actual novel.  I think the best choice was choosing a subject so far away from poetry, like sci-fi/fantasy and finding a way to integrate poetry into descriptions, whether it be character or setting.  As a poet I did have the added advantage of being overly conscious of characters emotions, and that plays a huge role in the making of this series.  Every character has a distinctly different feel, and in turn, has opinions and a voice-it’s truly amazing.

T: When it came to Cyran, you mentioned that she created herself.  Those that read the book might wonder just how much that rings true.  Did you know she was going to have the dynamic she does, where she discovers more about herself that was hidden from her?

BZ: Cyran’s character is so strong and sassy.  She also has so many downsides to her, like getting extremely angry very quickly. Her bravery almost gets in the way at time, being so fearless and selfless gets her in some sticky spots.  She is also not a very curious character, she tends to ‘not want to know.’  For some reason as a reader I always thought an author would relate heavily with their main protagonist, especially when writing from their point of view-but I couldn’t find myself any more different from Cyran.  It’s quite interesting, to be writing her story and feel almost amazed in all that she does.